READ ME

Dear friends,

This blog I feel has served it's purpose. I feel that the inspirations that are now coming into my life are far too sacred to write in such a public forum. For this reason I have decided to take somewhat of a leave of absence from this blog. I am not about the general inspiration of others. I am not all about the inspiration of specific individuals. If you have a desire to be one of those individuals and this blog has touched you, I invite you to come to me. I have a message for you.. but that message is ONLY for you. I promise that those of you who accept this invitation and come with ears to hear, your life will change. I love you all and I appreciate all the support over the years.

All my love,

Jaren James

Progess

I am amazed as I look back over this blog to see the progress that has taken place in my life. I now have eyes to see and can see that there were some thinking errors involved in the problems I was having. I realize that it was my victim mentality that kept me stuck for so many years. I am so blessed to have received all the guidance that I have from the Lord and my friends. I can truly say that I have come to know MY Savior. He is real. I have watched the scriptures come to life right in front of me. I spoke with a friend of mine last night about scripture study. I would like to share something that I shared with her last night. My friends, get the message that the Lord is trying to convey when you read. There is always a message. The message oft times has nothing to do with what they story is talking about. For example, I prayed to the Lord about moving to Hawaii a few years back. After telling the Lord my plan I decided to go ahead since I had not received any definitive answer. One night I was in my room alone and I got the impression to read a talk by President Monson. To this day I have no idea what that talk was even about.. but I got the message the Lord was sending to me. He told me, clear as day, that I was NOT to move to Hawaii. Nowhere in that talk was that message written. The principle, my friends, is obedience. If we honestly seek the Lord's will.. He will show it to us. I love that principle. D&C 82:10 "I the Lord am bound when ye do what I say. When ye do not what I say ye have no promise." It is that simple. The Lord wants to show you the mysteries of His kingdom. He wants you to obtain all that he has. Get the message. Is the Lord trying to send you a message right now? I mean right in this very moment as you are reading this.. Listen. The Lord has a plan for YOU. He loves you. Let him bless your life. I love you all. If any of you have something to say, please add your comments. I would love to hear your experiences. No individual's experience is greater than another's. Please do not be afraid to share. You can also share privately to my email (hyperlite182@gmail.com) or if you have a message you would like to send to others but remove your name I believe you can post here anonymously. Look forward to hearing from you.

Life is PERFECT

My friends.. Life is perfect. No matter where you are, no matter what your situation, no matter how sinful or clean your life is, life is perfect. I love where I am right now. I have never felt so happy and I have never felt so successful. I am exactly as I should be exactly where I should be. Thank you to all of those that have made this possible. If you think you played a part, you did. If you don't think you played a part, well, you did. I want you all to know how much I love the Lord. He is my everything. He is the reason I wake up in the morning. The only real reason for living. My great friend Jeff Dinsdale said something about me today that was one of the great compliments I have received in my life. Jeff said that the gospel runs through my veins. If you were to cut me open I would bleed truth. I truly believe this is true. I bleed truth. Every breath I take is truth. I am exactly where I need to be. My life is PERFECT. I am PERFECT. The Lord made me perfectly. What a blessing. My friends, I invite you to come unto the Lord. Pray. Read your scriptures. Teach your friends. Don't be afraid and don't live the gospel half way. You know better. I have so much love for each of you individually. I love hearing your comments and experiences so please keep sharing them. Much love my friends. You are PERFECT. CTCTW.

CTCTW

My friends, it has been too long. I appreciate all of those that have followed me over the years since I started this blog. You may never know the impact that your influence has had on my life. I would love to thank each one of you individually and I will take that opportunity if it comes, if not, please take this as your own personal thank you. Now, I have a lot that I need to share. There is so much in my life that you all don't know. I am not so sure that it is any specific event or anything like that. It is more me changing and growing and learning. If you have been away from me for more than about a month.. you are more than likely completely out of the loop. I invite you to come to know me. Now, this invitation requires work. I am willing and committed to each of you and I will be making contact with many of you as you pop into my head. I have already begun doing this and it has served me, and the other individual, quite well. My heart has been changed. I am a different man today than I have ever been before. I cannot share all that I want to on this blog. Now is not the time. But I will say that I will be blogging more often as I feel the time is right to do so. You all have my word on that. My word in the past was not so great. But today, I am my word. I will not let you down. All my love goes out to you all. If you do not know what CTCTW stands for... well, maybe the curiosity will be enough for you to contact me about it. I love you. May the Lord smile great blessings upon you all.

I'm back

Well, many things have happened as of late that have been life changing. I recently lost my job which I had for 3 1/2 years. I loved working for Telos and I am very grateful for the experience. I certainly took that job for granted and especially the money for granted. I made some good money there. I am now on the search for a new job and I am hoping to find one that will allow me to focus more on school. I recognize that I will most likely sacrifice money, but I need to be able to focus on my school work. Speaking of school, much has changed in that department as well. I am now back to my original plan. I am going to dental school and I am going to be an orthodontist. I am very excited and I feel this is the way that I need to be going. Also, I have made some new friends and I have rid myself of old ones that were not good influences in my life. I needed this fresh start. So, as I sit here I am reminded that I have so much. At times it is interesting to sit and look at where your life is and how you got there. I was so caught up in my life and all the worries. It is nice to have some time to think again and just remember what is most important. My family. My friends. My future. Being happy. Being clean. I am now refocused on the temple. I am excited to get back into a normal routine of attendance. I have missed the temple a great deal. It has left quite the void in my life and I want to fill it again. I suppose this is not going to be much of an inspiring entry, but it is for me. Looking back to where I was a few months ago, I have improved a great deal. I was not sure that I was going to live til tomorrow back when. Today I look forward to tomorrow and can look back on today with a smile. I am grateful for the gospel in my life. I am not yet where I want to be, but I am on my way. I am excited just to be on my way. I guess you can say I am enjoying the journey on the path back. I am not perfect, but I am able to forgive myself. I am getting better every day. I am back to being me again. I am looking to help others again. I am looking to be a support and a light in the lives of others. It's good to be me again. Slowly I am transforming and changing into the man I am supposed to become. It is basic, but it is crucial. Thanks to all of you who have helped me. Adam, Sonny, Victoria, Blake, Chris, Aimmie, Dad, Mom, Kaylese, Derek, Bishop, Chelsea, and everyone else, thank you. I love you all very, very much.

"Raising the Bar: Missionaries to Match the Message"

This entry is to those of you who are missionaries. If you think that you are excluded from this group because you did not serve a mission, think again. A wise man that I respect dearly once gave a talk that I am eternally grateful for. The talk was entitled "Raising the Bar: Missionaries to Match the Message". The man who gave the talk was Ed J. Pinegar. In this talk President Pinegar relates a story in which he was asked, "Where did you serve your mission?" He responded, "Earth. Earth is my mission". I laughed when I heard this because I thought it was cheesy, but he has a great outlook on his life. He is here to serve the Lord. He did not lose the title of "missionary" when he took of his plaque. The name of Jesus Christ was not just pinned to his coat, it was written on his heart. Those of us who have not served full time missions and those who have served full time missions, we are all here to serve a REAL full time mission. We need to have the Savior's name written on our hearts. We need to serve Him in every capacity. I am grateful for the opportunity to serve Him. I love Jesus Christ. He is my master and my best friend. Unfortunately for me I have left His side a few times and for that I have suffered. I am working my way back now and I look forward to serving Him in the temple again. To those of you who are struggling, I want to pass on a lesson that I learned from a wonderful friend of mine. You need to act like a Sister Missionary.. get a blessing.. in fact, get a lot of blessings. The Lord wants to help you, use the resources he has provided. I am grateful for worthy priesthood holders who are willing and worthy to perform these blessings. The Lord is King. I am but a humble servant. You are loved.

Whatever it takes

As many may know, I have been in a very rough spot the last few months. The adjustment to the love of my life being gone and all the other stresses that come with life have proven to be too much for me. I am in one of the deepest depressions of my life. As I sit here I wonder how this has happened? Where did I go wrong? How did I let it get this bad. A few things have come to mind when I think back on these last few months. First, I realize that I was not prepared in the slightest for Kellyn to leave. She was LITERALLY my LIFE. Without her I have NO LIFE. There in lies the biggest problem. I should not have put all of my eggs in one basket. Realizing this I have noticed that my relationship with my Heavenly Father has diminished greatly. That is where the real trouble begins. The lack of communication with and lack of respect for the Lord is my biggest downfall. Coupled with pride and grievous sin I feel sorrow. Immense amounts of sorrow. I feel that I have fallen to a place where there is little hope. So now what? Where do I go from here? Can I get back what I lost? Is there hope for a wretched soul such as mine? The answer is a resounding YES! I know that there is ALWAYS hope. I need to be willing to put in the leg work. I need to be willing to do WHATEVER IT TAKES. If I am not willing to do so then I will not make it. So, the message that I share this morning is one of hope and one of sobering reality. There are times in our lives where we have to do as the Lord has said, "Gird up {our} loins and fresh courage take". Brothers and Sisters, today is the day. Do not wait another minute. I am hopeful and for that, all glory be to the Father of my spirit. WHATEVER IT TAKES.