Sunday, September 26, 2010

Whatever it takes

As many may know, I have been in a very rough spot the last few months. The adjustment to the love of my life being gone and all the other stresses that come with life have proven to be too much for me. I am in one of the deepest depressions of my life. As I sit here I wonder how this has happened? Where did I go wrong? How did I let it get this bad. A few things have come to mind when I think back on these last few months. First, I realize that I was not prepared in the slightest for Kellyn to leave. She was LITERALLY my LIFE. Without her I have NO LIFE. There in lies the biggest problem. I should not have put all of my eggs in one basket. Realizing this I have noticed that my relationship with my Heavenly Father has diminished greatly. That is where the real trouble begins. The lack of communication with and lack of respect for the Lord is my biggest downfall. Coupled with pride and grievous sin I feel sorrow. Immense amounts of sorrow. I feel that I have fallen to a place where there is little hope. So now what? Where do I go from here? Can I get back what I lost? Is there hope for a wretched soul such as mine? The answer is a resounding YES! I know that there is ALWAYS hope. I need to be willing to put in the leg work. I need to be willing to do WHATEVER IT TAKES. If I am not willing to do so then I will not make it. So, the message that I share this morning is one of hope and one of sobering reality. There are times in our lives where we have to do as the Lord has said, "Gird up {our} loins and fresh courage take". Brothers and Sisters, today is the day. Do not wait another minute. I am hopeful and for that, all glory be to the Father of my spirit. WHATEVER IT TAKES.