Saturday, February 6, 2010
I have been having a hard time as of late. Things are just plain hard. I am trying to stay strong and fight temptation. I am trying to move on even though Kellyn has moved away so that she can serve her mission. I am trying to keep up with school even though it is stressful and expensive. I am trying to be a good friend to others who have difficulty in their lives. But you know, it's hard. I want to be married. I want to have Kellyn back. I don't want to have to do all of this stuff alone. I feel really alone. I realize that feeling alone means that I am not turning to the Lord enough. Because if I turn to Him then I never feel alone. So I am taking this opportunity, while things are hard, to catch myself and turn to the one who understands me best. After all, He is the one who has brought all this hard stuff into my life. I know that He knows how to help me through it all. He will provide a way for it all to be accomplished. I am not sure how that will be however. I am going to hold on. I am going to make it. With my eyes on the prize. I am worth it. I will not let the adversary tear me down. This is a fight I am not willing to lose. I choose to win. Glory be to the Most High.